So my use of the word nobody was apparently troubling to y’all nobodies. I get it, my snarky (with a smile) comment down there notwithstanding.
The point I was trying to make was not about readership. (I actually talked quite a bit at the conference about how I’m happy with the 50 people who do read this blog.) I was talking about my personal justification for not being serious about blogging and not making a commitment to blogging.
You know that anything I commit to doing, I will do even if it means not sleeping or not eating or not doing anything else that’s not important. So where was that “nobody’s reading anyway” justification coming from? It was coming from me – the woman who doesn’t justify – the woman who doesn’t really do guilt – the woman who meets her deadlines every single time.
Except when it comes to being serious about blogging (and again, I’m not talking about HERE – I’m talking about BlogHer blogging.) Why did I let that go? Because I have contracted great writers? Because nobody’s reading and looking for serious posts from me there? (or here – y’all are nice and you take what you get here and you often get squat.) Because why?
Who the hell knows. I was just saying that hearing Y read her post, that was spurred in part from my post which was spurred from reading a really interesting book caused me to re-think the lack of commitment and to wonder WTF I’m doing.
That’s it. It isn’t about finding my current readership lacking. It isn’t any lack of confidence in myself, good grief I do not suffer from lack of self esteem (can you imagine?) It’s about me asking myself questions. Period.
Will I recommit to writing posts regularly on BlogHer.com? Who knows. Will I blog more real stuff here? Who knows. The keynote got me to stop and think about it and that’s where I’m at. If I get beyond that, I’ll let ya know.
Until then, it was just me telling you what I walked away from BlogHerCon 08 with.
OK back to work.